If I'm Not Ready Now . . .

I'm not going to be. 16 weeks or more of training. Several months before that of fundraising. The time has almost come to run the race. This last week before the race should be relatively stress free. I should be getting lots of rest, drinking lots of water, going for a few easy runs, and daydreaming about our Italian vacation that commences the day after the marathon.
Unfortunately, I'm a wreck. I'm an Ontario college teacher and we've been on strike since March 7th. We don't seem to be close to a resolution so I have know way of knowing when I'll get my next paycheck. On top of that, Peter and I have been dealing with a family crisis. I don't want to get into any details here, but we've been sad, anxious, and concerned. It's bad timing to leave the country and I'm not in the best mental state to run a major race.
However, I did say earlier that I was a basket case in the days leading up to my last marathon. Perhaps some of my feelings can be attributed to race and trip anxiety.
Yesterday, Peter and I ran our last long run before the race. It was a relatively easy 16K. We couldn't believe that it was snowing. I really thought we were done with snowy runs. The footing was okay, though, and it wasn't too cold. Hard to believe that my next Sunday run will be in shorts and t-shirt (most likely) through the streets of Rome.
This may be my last entry before the race. I'll post our results when we're home but if you'd like to know sooner, you can look up my time on the race site. The link is posted to your right. My big number is 931.